Drop Somethin' ?
I am going to revisit something I dropped a while ago. It wasn’t dropped on accident or because I no longer wanted it. It was on purpose, intentional, heartbreaking and it was just time. I needed to see who I was without it. I spent so many years holding onto it, standing behind it; using it. Leaving it presented me with a concern. Many concerns. Would it die? Would I die? Would it expire while I was away? Would I just find other things to put in its place?
What would I look like if I showed up without it? How do I show up without it? Would I go back and pick it up? Would it still be there? The answers could only be found by me. Me, taking action.
Its no ones job to tell you what’s around the corner. Your life is YOUR responsibility. Searching for external sources to guide/tell you where to go and what to do is only half of the equation! YOU are the other half! And I’d like to argue, we leave ourselves out of the equation so we can remove ourselves from responsibility when things go wrong. We NEED people to grow. But if there’s no YOU to grow then we are just becoming someone we were never meant to be.
A risk exposes you to danger. When you take a risk it exposes you to the possibility of something unwelcome, unpleasant or harmful. If you fail, you lose and you might get hurt.
Trust yourself to take risks and know that when you fail, because you will at some point, it’s not the end, and you’ll be ok. Investing in YOU goes beyond buying clothes, getting your nails done and going on vacation. Trusting yourself with the big decisions and doing so again and again will build the trust needed to live fully alive and leave you knowing yourself better than when you started.
I took a risk. I exposed myself to unknown territory without anything familiar to back me up. I left what I knew and realized I didn’t really know myself. I was scared. I took a big risk and turns out, I am a good investment. I am not what I left behind, I am so much more. But funny thing is, what I “left” never left me. It has been with me the whole time! Ya see, when we know ourselves more we can acknowledge the freedom we’ve been given and confident enough to see things differently. When we revisit “old” things, the possibility of them feeling like new is pretty great.
When you leave something familiar behind, it’s hard. Trust me, I know. But it was when I surrounded myself with people who loved, supported and believed in me was a much needed part of my journey. But it was me who need to move!!
I, am apart of the equation.
You, are a part of the equation.
People, are a part of the equation.
Even though some say 2+2 doesn’t equal 4, I’m not interested in that nonsense and making things more complicated for the sake of, well, just following the circus it seems. Sometimes it’s the simplest of things that answer the most complicated questions. You just need to go back to the basics! Go back, to yourself.
Do you know your basics? Do you know yourself? Just askin’
In case you’re wondering what all this is about… I’m pursuing my 7th degree black belt come next year. Cheers to dreaming big!!
Much love,
Shantell
